It’s incredible how you can try so hard for so many years to convince yourself that one person in particular did not impact your life and how you feel, and then when you see that one person after all those years and every thought you succeeded escaping, that all those emotions and all of that hate comes rushing into your life and you’re sent back to that one place that you worked so hard to get away from.

Hate is a powerful feeling. So is fear. 

I have many fears, but I only hate one person. The one person I hate instilled all the fear into my mind, my mind that resists all of my attempts to overcome all the fears he put in. He wins now, but he doesn’t know it. He will not affect my life, I will keep going on as if he never existed. But for my mind.. I don’t know when it will be able to realize that he is piece of shit that should not take up any ounce of energy that my body has to focus on.

I hate you tmb. I just hope that I am the last one.